genesis and back to the future

it will always be a great debate - the theory of evolution and the genesis.
given that God gave men his free will, i, without fear for rejection or repulsion will say that i believe that God made the universe and he is the mastermind of everything but he let it all happen, he let us evolve into the species that we are now. heresy you may say, but that's what i think it is.

if you think about how tiny you are compared to the universe, you will wonder how everything works out so beautifully if not perfectly, so elaborate. And there is a scientific explanation for things, a mathematical equation for relationships, but even those i believe, God is behind.

i revere at the thought that i know nothing of these complex explanations but i have my faith.

i could cry just at the thought of the magic of a baby in the womb;
how we have our ribcage to protect our lungs and heart and other organs;
how we have the sun at daytime and the moon at night;
and just how every planet revolves around the sun;

random..

i just dont get them ladies errr... girls (don't think they're lady enough to know) - who do their makeup in public.
isn't that something personal that you do somewhere more private?
::screw in the head::

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have this diary/planner that my husband gave me, it's already april and have only 5 pages with writings
got to get organized again.

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torn between what I love and what I need

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if you thought that MRTs coach for females, children and the disabled is a good thing, therefore a blessing, you thought wrong.

but i keep coming back to black...

i feel happy and i see colors
i feel like having a change, i see different hues
i see greens and orange and silver
but i see me
and i come back to black

i get the drive to do what i NEED to do and i try
find happiness, i try
i try and i try, i do not fail
but still what i LOVE haunts me, and it's always the same
i keep coming back to black

i really should stay with black.

to the left, to the right

GAWD!
i'm missing a whole lotta designing and creative stuff.
was browsing through Willy Santos' site, he had a link to Arnette(a skateboarding label)
and dang it hit me.
it had a seemingly usual options page where you could select a country link.
once you rollover on one of the countries, an image of a flag appears behind that country's name.
it was simple but splendidly done.
just that and everything came back to me.
i really love web design and graphics(my right brain raging). it's what i've been wanting to do since i graduated college(ooh i'm old! it's been so long).
but it takes a lot of time lot of time and effort and i needed a job badly so i ended up with web programming, ::sigh::, left brain won.

the notebook

i failed to watch "the notebook" years before, maybe for a divine reason..
you see something like it and you fall into a trance
and all you feel are the glory and power of love, and it all seems so simple again
then the movie ends and you wake up..

"there is love, and then there is life, its enemy." --Jean Anouilh

quest for nowhere

like always, distracted..
as often, disoriented..
am i taking myself nowhere?