i would very much like to be your shining light....

limbo

so where else do i go?

this is the first i almost survived,
but then....

yun na!

Mon 14, Feb 2011 at 16:51.30

test

i told you, let's not go there......

what do your inspirations say about you

right now i can only think of two persons - zhang jingna and alodia gosiengfiao. so imagine my surprise and envy when i first found out that they had a shoot together and are even each others favorites.

one is a photographer from singapore, but has conquered the world. the other one is a filipino cosplay artist who has gone about the same - both just 22 years old, for goodness sakes!!!!

my point is, being in the IT industry shouldn't it be that one who inspires me should be someone like the google guys or the brains behind facebook?
so what does this say about me?

i know i'm not the only who is in the same situation and, it's but natural to look at these kind of people with awe and admiration but, to want to be like them?
driven by passion for art....

they say that people have 3 approaches when taking on a something; considering it as a job, a career or a calling.
so what am i doing?

how to see now

i sold my camera phone, so the past week i've been thinking of bringing my digital camera with me wherever i go.
sad thing, i lost my digital camera too, rather it got stolen.

so now, i don't know how to go about thinking i don't have anything to take pictures with. it's so frustrating that everyday for the last week i was thinking of picking it up, but then i didn't. and it managed to get stolen.

i can't help blaming myself. i can't believe i wasted time not taking photos with it.
and i can't believe i didn't make the most out of every photo i took with it.

i have probably thousands now, but they all just sit in my hard drive, because i couldn't make myself post process them.

ay, regrets.

but as they say you lose something so that your hands could be free to receive something better. *sigh*

and i'd be happy even with a second hand d90. *gooey-eyed*

put poetry in motion

For years now my memory has been slowly deteriorating. I thought it was because of what they say about giving birth, that the anesthesia makes you forgetful.
It's only now that I realize (after reading a blog that I have been following for a number of years now) that my failure to remember is due to my indifference. As I have failed to find attachment on things, on places, on people, i have failed to bond them with memory. I felt it, I have been incapable of feeling for things for some time now. That is why all that I can remember clearly are the befores. Have grown quite numb and apathetic.. It gave the illusion that I was strong, I guess I am, but also a two faced coward.