For years now my memory has been slowly deteriorating. I thought it was because of what they say about giving birth, that the anesthesia makes you forgetful.
It's only now that I realize (after reading a blog that I have been following for a number of years now) that my failure to remember is due to my indifference. As I have failed to find attachment on things, on places, on people, i have failed to bond them with memory. I felt it, I have been incapable of feeling for things for some time now. That is why all that I can remember clearly are the befores. Have grown quite numb and apathetic.. It gave the illusion that I was strong, I guess I am, but also a two faced coward.
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